college life

I am sitting here all on my own in a very new computer lab and I have finally gotten through all of my classes at least once. This is all so different to me. Being from a very small town myself I am very un-used to the big town and the big schools and the very large campus. To me I am the little mouse that lived in her little hillbilly life and one day decided to travel to the city. This paper is not only the first college paper I have written but also the first paper I have written since High School English three semesters ago and for that reason I find myself nervous that I am writing it so easily. This reflection is supposed to be about the changes I have gone through the differences and maybe even the things I thought would change and have not, well…how much time do you have? To be quite frank this changes thing that we are supposed to tell about has not been something I thought would happen overnight and for me has been happening long before this first semester started here at Aims. Since I graduated from High School in May I have moved out of my home the one I grew up in and left my family. Packed everything I owned into a moving truck kissed my mom and Dad and moved into a four bedroom house in what my mom and I call “cookie cutter land.” That was the first of the big changes. Being from the mountains I am not used to looking into my backyard and seeing three other houses, or opening my front door and feeling like the people across the street can see everything I am doing. Then I have to admit, and how childish this is going to sound, I miss my mom so much. She is my best friend and when I lost her in my life every day I didn’t really know what to do with myself. I felt lost and to be quite honest I felt so different. When the bills started and the two jobs to cover the bills started I actually began to settle in, strange I know the thing that most people hate the most is what made me feel the most at home and the most adult. Then Aims started and that was really the least of my changes. I had classes not four like in High School but still five was not bad, I had friends, and I had teachers and really good teachers too. The thing I found so much easier than I ever thought would be possible was that the class sizes were no bigger than the classes in my little “ho-dunk” town of Bailey. They all were able to fit less than thirty into the door and the teachers actually knew my name. That was so unexpected but the most pleasant of surprises. The only true obstacle I never expected to be as hard as it has been is not having my mom. She is my support system and her being one hundred plus miles away and me not being able to see her and do my homework with her on those days when we would just sit in the kitchen her cooking me pretending to work but really just talking away with her that is the hardest part of it all. That is probably the obstacle I need to over come, learning how to do it all on my own. It is going to be so hard but I know that I want to succeed and I want to make her proud and my Dad proud and everyone else who, to be honest never saw me making it to college, proud. That alone will be my pushing edge and that is going to be my fire and that is going to be the easiest way to get through all of these changes.

BUSY BUSY SISSY

So I really cant type long as I have to off to prep for work at The doba but I had to share the trip to NC was amazing when I have more time I will post some pics we had a blast and the trip to virgina was amazing too! Got back and cleaned and got back to reality (I hate that part ) HAD MY 18th BIRTHDAY!!!!!! That is a blog all its own agian I swear I will post pics and the whole days story when i am not in a tornado of a frenzy. UMMMMMMM It is freeeezing in Evans today so decked with my sweater and jeans i ventured here to the UNC library to begin a something of a blog. (hey at least I tried) Umm yeah when I have five seconds to myself I will update pics and all but for now I have to venture back out to the yucky weather and continue on life! Loves to all
J