welcome back

I know that after 3 years of silence re-opening a blog seems a bit silly, but to me it is a place to share my thoughts and maybe my wisdom, get advise and if nothing else, when my son is driving me nuts and my husband is at work I have a place to turn and let it all out.

So as a first blog back I suppose maybe catching up on the past 3 years is something I should do first. So in a nutshell, the last post I had just found out Christian was on his way, boy does that seem like yesterday and then I turn and look at my 2 and a half year old son sitting on the couch and can't believe it sometimes. Where did the time go? When did that little blip on the screen of the ultrasound machine (known as froggy) become a baby boy and when did that baby boy become something I could hold? and when did I blink and that little tiny 7 pound 6 ounce baby boy become a 3 foot tall 30 pound 2.5 year old who talks back and tells me no? When did "I said no" become "but yes mommy!" Crazy! After Christian was born Grandma passed away and that sucked but she is an will always be my super hero! Paul Proposed and we got married. Paul and I moved off the mountain and into the (bleh) city! Paul got a new job where he makes great money and I got an AMAZING job making great money and best of all doing what I love. Which I should inform peopl, is no longer what I thought I would do with my life. I fell in love with marketing and am now a marketing and Events cordinator for a small local marketing agency. So that is the nutshell and a few pics for you. next post will be soemthing actually meaningful! but for now to you and to me Welcome back to "Jacquie's Deep Thoughts" now known as "Mommy Mouse Clubhouse"

Moving on and being the best Jacquie possible!

So alot has happened in the last two months and most of you know everything but since the break up i have worked on being Jacquie. I have to say that this girl is the shit! I have found that like my mom I love to go dancing and so i try to go every friday or saturday night to this little bar downtown greeley and listen to the live bands and have alot of fun! my school work has improved and I am pulling strait A's right now! My GPA is a solid 4.0 for the first time in my life and everything is going according to plan. I also have to tell everyone I have started dating someone else and that someone is Paul. Yes Paul paul! He is great to me and I am to him and we are friends first and for most but we also have found there was something much deeper then friendship there. Nick is doing okay with it but in the spirt of moving on, i am moving out! it has been decided by myself that it is the best thing for both me and nick and i am so excited about it. I am looking at homes and jazzi and i are preparing and maybe even Paul. he has decided that he is moving out as well for reasons that are private but it has yet to be decided if that will be us moving in togther. to prepare everyone, it probably will be me and him living togther. I dont want to hear I am moving to fast though I am moving at my speed and so is paul. that is that...most of all I am so happy!
Moving on I am also looking into a new job. I am working on getting my substitute teaching license and doing that and also on monday i am getting pinned as a Mary-Kay consoltent. I am a GO TO girl so anyone looking for some incredible stuff let me know and we will get you all sorts of hooked up! The same goes for classes and what is called a booking but really i am gonna give you a free facial so if you are interested in any of that let me know!
Anyway I also am working on a side project for a local buissness up here and loving doing that! It is this adorable little place with YUMMMMMMY food and they just have a great enviroment and so i am doing some advertising work for it. I think it will help them out alot. But i just got back from bowling and I am actually off to a meeting with them so I will wrap this up sorry it has been so long since I have written. I have to go though and will try to keep you more updated!
L8tr,
Jacquie

POST 100!!!!!

So for post 100 I was going to just say the biggest news of all but there has been alot going on so I guess i will tell the three things that happened in my life lately. First of all Big news...Skittlz is going to have babies!!! We found out that she is three weeks prego and i think we are excited! I guess things happen and so Skittlz is gonna have her babies and we are excited for her! she is already pretty round and her nipples are pocking out and if you feel her tummy you can feel the babies already! It is so cool!
On Saturday night Paul and me and Stasia all ventured out to The coolest bar in town. It is called the Island Grill it is in Downtown greeley and it is a place to be. One of my friends from work plays in a band and they are so good and they were playing there on saturday! it was so much fun We danced and danced all night long. We came home at around one and went to bed as I had to work in the morning. But that was okay becasue the night was full of fun! Paul and I have been getting closer and truly enjoying our friendship! I did not realize there was so much there between us but it is a great thing and he is a FANTASTIC person! I think we are going to stay close.
Sunday i had to work but when I got off Paul and i decided to load up into his car and pay a visit to bailey! it was so nice to go there and see everyone! i had not been home in about a month so it was so great to just hang out. The boys and i played Life and paul hung out getting to know the boys better we watched a movie and then he headed over to see his family. monday i got up and went to school with Joh! What better way to spend time with my little brother. i volenteered and helped and even got to teach two classes for his teacher! in the end we rode the bus home togther as Paul had his car and sissy didnt have hers with her. it was okay though we walked home and spent time togther before sissy headed to HIYA with mommy and the boys! I love watching them but i am a litle scared of how bad they could hurt me lol. Anyways That is it On monday night Paul and I packed up and headed back to Greeley and now i am going to go swimming with my girls before heading out to work at 5:30! Ahhh i love being in college and being young and guess what....HAVING FUN!!!

interview one

Okay so not much to report but yesterday I went to AIMS at 5:30 for my half hour interview one with the people from DC. I met with Dr. Taylor, Dr. Swant and Dr. Blane. All three of them were very nice and told me that they were excited to meet me and asked me to tell them about myself. I did and they talked and we discussed what i wanted from my schooling and all that kind of stuff and that was happy. I spent a half hour talking to them and after that half hour I was cut off because that is what they believed was a good amount of time to make a first impression. So hopefully it went well and that made me smile. So i thought i would share. The picture is simply the outfit I wore to try to look all professional and teacher like!

INTERNSHIP!!!!!

So this is short sweet and to the point as I dont want to jinx it or make it more then it is before it is something! My Professor asked to talk with me after class on friday. He said he had news. He had gotten offered a one year teaching position at a university in Washington DC and was asked to bring and intern. This intern would teach the class twice a week and observe and learn three times a week. Five of us were chosen and I AM ONE OF THEM!!! i have to spend the next two months trying my best to impress a whole bunch of people and hopefully in the end I will be the one that gets to go! There is five of us as i said, I am the only girl and i know two of the other guys up for it and they are very good too! Well i will keep you updated but for now just keep your fingers crossed for me!!!

because you all need to know

i am going to make this quick as it is hard as hell to talk about and i am only posting it so i dont have to answer all the questions and everyone knows. Last night (monday) nick and I broke up. i am not putting reason in it for anyone that is between myself and nick and We are really trying to make the friendship work. I am in severe pain as is nick i am sure but for now this is the best for us both! there is hope in my head that says after enough time apart we will no doubt be back together. I love him with all of my heart and soul and always will but for now I am talking my mom and Daddys advice and being friends first...somewhere along the long time we have been together it seems to have become minimal. I would really apreciate no questions and as i said before nick has become a part of all of our family please noone be upset at him or me for any of this. Things will work out for the best. I just thought you all deserved to know this! I a going to sign off for a while to give myself time to find somethng worth writing about! I am working on being fine so please noone worry! Love you all and now you all know!
love you
jacquie

Introducing.....

So yesterday Nick and I drove accross the state with Joh and Sean to Aurora to be at the Aurora Petco by 9:00 when they opened. Why you may ask did we do that? well The Puppy rescue was there and adopting out puppies for the very good price of $125.00! I had looked online and seen a couple great looking pups but i never expected what I got. On Friday night right before the big day I checked one last time online to look at the pictures. I came across a beautiful Great Pyraneese and I thought wow I have to see her! So i had her in mind when we got there. As the puppies started to arrive one by one there she came and my heart lept. She looked at me and I at her and I knew she was the one. I was the first on the list so when they called my name i went strait to her cage and said I want to see that one. After ten minutes of alone time and Some very cute looks at nick she was mine. The boys aproved and I was in love again. So without further ado I would like to introduce Jazmine Mueller (she has a middle name that nick picked out but It is so weird so just know Jazmine M. mueller! enjoy the pics guys and I can not wait for you all to meet my sweet little girl!

Thank you all

Hey guys I wanted to post it up really quick a big thank you to everyone who was there for me and who offered very kind words after Bruno passed. As you all know Bruno was my very best friend and will always be in my heart. Thank you to all of you people who even sent a kind email my way every ounce of support i got has helped. Especially thank you to My mom, without you here i dont know what I would have done and the phone calls and the emails and the everything you have done for me has really helped me get through this all. You staying the night here on Saturday was the best of all. falling asleep on your shoulder again made everything feel like it would be okay. To Nick who has held my hand and helped me and been there through all the crying and the bad dreams and the nights when I laid in bed crying and calling Brunos name while I slept. And last but not least to Katy, Kat and Riah who were there the second they could be and held my hand, brought me blizzards, made me eat and most of all made me smile. Thank you guys I love you so muchi have the best friends in the whole world. I am so happy that you told me it was okay to cry but is was not okay to cry alone. Thank you so very much for that you guys I love you and I could not ask for a better set of friends.
So to sum it all up On Saturday nick, sean Joh and I are going to petco in Aurora to look at the puppies from the rescue center to try to fillthe void in my heart. Bruno you will never be forgotten and Could NEVER be replaced I just need a new friend to snuggle with and spoil. plus lets face it I am SOOO not a cat person!
Thank you everyone for everything i love you all!
Jacquie

OMG MY HAIR!!!!!

So On Sunday after I did all the bloging and was going to sleep I looked at my hair while Nick was playing with it and relized how dry and unhappy my dead ends were making it. So to the bathroom I headed to trim off the dead ends, some VERY unhappy ten minutes later I walked out of the bathroom my hair in a ponytail balling! Nick grabbed me and asked "honey whats wrong?" I pulled my hair out of the pony. It was very Very clearly uneven. He looked at it and held back the laugh I know was on his lips and said its okay babe you can go to the stylist tomorrow after class and they can fix it. I started crying harder. They are goiong to have to cut it all off! I replied. He snickered a little but not to much and told me it was okay they would fix it and my hair would grow back. Well I did not relize how right i was. Monday after class I went to Cost cutters and there they cut off anouther inch of my hair. Total I lost three inches and my hair is sooooo short. I came home okay with it until that night. I was laying in bed and started crying. Nick asked what was wrong. I looked at him and said I let them cut off my only pretty thing. He smiled and held me tight and reassured me it was not my only pretty thing and that he thought my hair looked sexy and very cute. i still think it is too short but Nick is right it will grow back and at least it doesnt look bad it is just really short. All well live and learn. I learned not to cut my own hair EVER again!!!

Why do I type?

Okay so I just sat down and typed I think four new blogs and talked about everything. i know that mom reads these but does anyone else? I really hope you all are and if you are leave a comment. Let me know you enjoy this so i have the desire to blog almost everyday! There is ALOT of new blogs so enjoy the reads!

Oh yeah to those people I got intreasted in the book... I am heading to that blaog when I finish here and I am going to try to write Chapter one. I know it took forever but good things come to those who wait.

love you
Jacqs

Paul and Jacquie...bond???

For those of you who dont know who Paul is he is one of the roomates in the house and also is Nick's best friend since fifth grade. Paul and I have really never goten along probably something to do with us both being in Nicks life. I fell in love with Nick and Paul was scared for his best friend. However today I think He and I finally declared we not only can get along great but make a pretty good friendship. So Paul and i were left chilling at the house once grandma and Grandad left and as paul poured a bowl of ceral I made the coment "We NEED to shop." The fridge was emptier then Gaundis (sp) Stomach. So after he finished his ceral we headed out. We ventured to Walmart in Minnie Moe (freshly spot cleaned I might add) and we went into Walmart our budget : what it took to fill the fridge. So we grabbed a cart and headed toward the fruits. After getting fruits and vegis we headed to the meats and got a lot of that them lunch meat and then up and down EVERY isle. I bought EVERYTHING we needed. (and some we didnt but you know what who cares) We bought everyting from Bananas to ice cream to yogurt to cottage cheese to chicken to fajita stuff (which paul made for dinner) The cart was full and we headed to the cleaning department. We bought the toliet stickers from scrubbing bubbles and carpet stain remover and draino (my thick hair clogged my tub) and then we checked out the total was....well lets say we each (all four of us) owe $68. WE DID SO GOOD!!! The best feeling was unloading it all. As we put it all away I filled the fridge as paul unloaded the rest into the appropriate cabinet. (canned food, boxed food, junk food ect...) (no mom Junk food is NOT the most full of them all) So we took a before and after picture Which I will be posting in the next blog. I have yet to download them. Well while we were shopping in the junk food isle we came across the Betty Crocker um what are they called oh uh Warm Delights that is it. Paul commented he had never had one, that was it...We had to buy some. Sadly to reward ourselves for a good job shopping noone in the house but paul and I even know the warm delights were purchesed (lol) we ate all of them. So waiting tilol we had to go and get Kat and Nick from work we settled into the couch and watched "Lake house" which is so incredible. Paul had seen it and I had not and when he found that out he sat me down and said I had to see it. With every twist and turn I asked a question he simply said you will see with a smile. When he movie was over we loaded into the truck (nick had his bike) and headed to lobster. Once we got there Paul and I relized we forgot a couple things so we all four headed back to wally world Kat and I in the bed of the truck it was so fun! We bought two new phones and picture frames and printed out some pictures. They are so old and so cute. One was of Nick and Paul in the sixth grade. So as paul destracted Nick from seeing what I was doing I made like thirty copies of this picture. it was great. (I'll post a copy of it on here with the pictures of the fridge.) So then we headed home and all settled in and then the girls came over....to be cnt

Okay so its up

okay so i sortd it out fast and the site is linked on my page but is also right here
http://fallenpetalbook.blogspot.com/
check it out and become a follower
Jacqs

my pumpkin!!!

WE CARVED PUMPKINS AND I LOVE THE WAY MINE TURNED OUT SO HERE IS A PIC OF IT CAUSE IT IS SOOOOO COOL LOVE YOU
jACQS

A new kind of blog

hey all I have yet to decide how i am going to do this but I am going to create a second "blog" I really want to write a book and latley i have had all of these ideas for it so I think to start it up I am going to write a chapter per post on anouther blog. Jacquiesdeepthoughts will still be here but there will also be a link on my page to my book. I think it is going to happen i jaut feel all inspired and have ideas going through my head like crazy. If you want to know more write me on here and I will let you know the details. Like I said I dont know all the details yet but when I gt them worked out i will post it on here, Wish me luck
Jacquie

woot woot

So today I fought for America and fought for the right to live...I VOTED TODAY!!! I obviously voted for John Mccain...um...um...uh...if you believed that you are so dumb and know nothing about me. I of course voted for Barak Obama. I also got to fight for the amendements and I feel very strongly about one. The topic of 48: the abortion law. I voted no no no no on this law. I feel so strongly about womens rights to their own body. So I thought I would update and tell that I voted today and yeah me!!! Young voters get out there and please god...Let Obama WIN!!!

well well long time ago....in a town not so far away...=)

hey all wow it has been a while a long while lol. Well I guess just start from the last time we spoke, on friday i headed home for seans speech meet and at 1 am a tired sissy crawled into bed with a sleeping mommy and after an hour of neither of us being able to shut up the two closed their eyes and fell into never never dream land. the next morning came all too quicly wheen mom and i awoke to the smll of coffee and a very very annoying alarm clock. I crawled out of bd only to find mom's lovely animals had decided it would be best if they marked thir territory all over my clothes. SO frustrated sissy went shopping in moms closet. The meet was so great and i loved judging! the kids were all so great and it ended up being so hard to pick but i did and after seeing brooke and playing a game of pony and the awards and a hg to mama barth I headed off. that is back to my mommys bed were we spent anouther night in chit chat land loving every minute of it! It was incredible to gt to do that. I loved it mom thanks for sharing ur bed with me. Sunday we slept in ys ladis and gentlmen you heard it here first Sue mueller dared to sleep till 9 o clock on a sunday morning!!! dun dun dun! she needed it though so i dared not to wake her and i slept in too. At noon we headed to mels baby shower. it was a blast we played games and ate incredible food and i presented little baby boy with a hand made blanket. YAH ME!!! So sunday ended with my daddy coming home!!! Well due to this it was back to the couch for me. I didnt mind it was great to see dad and mom and i had two nights of girly time. Monday I awoke to Sean saying opps I missed the bus and after some simple persuassion (i didnt want to wake up to take him) mom let sean ditch school and have a sissy sean day. We wnt to town and saw a really good movie and ended the night with ...um...political campaining. =) we had a blast and it was wonderful to spend a whole day with my lil bro!!! Tuesday brought anouther observation day and so off to PCHS I went and i got to spend some one on one time with my mentor mr. miller and it was so great!!! Wednesday was my last day at home and so a sad sissy set off on her two hour journey to Greeley to head home sweet home.
Thursday brought work as did friday and after work on friday me and nick and kat and paul and tabby and percilla and liz and hannah and drew and well lets just say a bunch of people from work headed over to the only place open when we all get off work on a friday night... Old Chicago. We ate some wings and played pool until like 2 in the morning and it was a blast hanging out with friend and dancing and just being in college. it was great. and at 2:30 am a very sleepy sissy curled up next to her honey and fell fast asleep in his arms. Saturday we had a freeze storm and everythiing was soooooo cold but work must go on so by 4 me and nick and kat were back in our aprons to head to work. I was starting to get the applified verson of what i thought was just something ba i ate but i went to work and was able to shak of my nausa. Sunday i woke up bright and early headed to work only to find I still felt like crap and it was getting worse. I had two tables that morning and one of them was just th sweetest. It was the grandmas 75th birthday and next week her and her husband would celebrate 50 years marriage. sothey invited to red lobster to celebrate their daughter their son in law and there two granddaughters one of which was marrid so hr hubby was there too. Whn I brought the drinks to the table i saw the grandmother sitting with a card in her hand balling, i assumed it was all th emotions of all the events being celebrated today until i saw the mom also crying her eyes out the mom turned to me and said, "I am gonna be a grandma!" and the grandma through her tears sqeezd out "Im gonna be a great grandma" I cant explain the feelings that rushed through my body but i was honored to be a part of this families life even for a moment in the memory. They ended up giviing me a peice of cake and a fourty dollar tip but the best part was the huug i got from the grandma now great grandma as she left the resturant and she whispred into my ear, "Im so happy for the fact that we had a waitress like you to share this with" It was so sweet I hugged her and went into the back were i cryed for the whole thing i think i got swept up in the moment but whatever i will never forget this family and hope to see them again soon.
Finally Monday today monday I went to class and on the way home decided for the sake of being causious I would make a dr appointment to see why i was sick. I went to the doctor where they ran tests and an ultra sound and before anyone freaks NO I AM NOT HAVING A BABY! I have better news from the doctor...I have a stomach ulsar! they put me on a specail diet and i have to be on it for two weeks if it does not get better I have to go back for medication. weeeee! Well anyway so after that i went to the store and got all the stuff i am allowed to eat for the next two weeks and then after Kat got off work WE CARVED PUMPKINNS!!! Yeah! Well tomorrow I am going in to early vote and then i dont know but whatever for now I am going to bed. So a very tired sissy is going to bed to lay next to her hony cuddle up with him and slip into dream land. Night all
love you
J

okay I know

Okay I know my last post was lame but I wanted to take it and my myspace already has one. Who knows maybe you will be inspired to do one of your own...maybe you will learn something about me, Its not as cheesy as it looks!
Jacquie

All about me

Name:	Jacqueline Rose-Mary Mueller
Birthdate:	August 9, 1990
Birthplace:	Denver CO St. Joesphs Hospital
Current Location:	Evans CO
Eye Color:	Blue
Hair Color:	Um I think it is an off brunett type
Height:	five eight
Weight:	ya right
Piercings:	three in my left ear two in my right
Tatoos:
Boyfriend/Girlfriend:	My honey pie baby lol Love you Nick!
Overused Phraze:	"Whats wrong."
FAVORITES
Food:	Chineese Damn now I want some
Candy:	Chocolate
Number:	11
Color:	blue
Animal:	efalent
Drink:	sprite and water
Alcohol Drink:	Haha Im not 21 lol
Bagel:	onion
Letter:	N
Body Part on Opposite sex:	eyes
This or That
Pepsi or Coke:	coke
McDonalds or BurgerKing:	mickey D's
Strawberry or Watermelon:	watermelon
Hot tea or Ice tea:	iced tea
Chocolate or Vanilla	chocolate
Hot Chocolate or Coffee:	COFFEEEEEE!!!!
Kiss or Hug:	both
Dog or Cat:	DOG! Big sweet loving dogs
Rap or Punk:	rap
Summer or Winter:	winter
Scary Movies or Funny Movies:	funny unless you are with someone you love to hold onto then scary
Love or Money:	love
YOUR...
Bedtime:	when my eyes starting wanting me to sleep
Most Missed Memory:	my speech team with Sean
Best phyiscal feature:	my eyes or my hair depends on who you ask
First Thought Waking Up:	really is it already time for school/work
Goal for this year:	30 credit hours
Best Friends:	are better in groups! Nick, Kat, Katy, Martha, Ray Ray
Weakness:	trusting people who sometimes dont deserve it.
Fears:	SNAKES!!!
Heritage:	dutch, german (i think), canadian
Longest relationship:	almost 4 years! I love you baby
HAVE YOU...
Ever Drank:&..39;>
Ever Smoked:	yes
Pot:	NOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Ever been Drunk:	yes
Ever been beaten up:	IDK
Ever beaten someone up:	no
Ever Shoplifted:	no
Ever Skinny Dipped:	Yes yes yes
Ever Kissed Opposite sex:	Um duh
Been Dumped Lately:	no
IN A GUY/GIRL
Favorite Eye Color:	brownish green
Favorite Hair Color:	dark anything dark
Short or Long:	short
Height:	taller then me
Style:	laid back
Looks or Personality:	personality
Hot or Cute	cute
Drugs and Alcohol:	alcohol
Muscular or Really Skinny:	muscular
RANDOMS
Number of Regrets in the Past:	none they are what make me who I am today
What country do you want to Visit:	FRANCE!!!
How do you want to Die:	in the arms of my baby
Been to the Mall Lately:	no but i should go
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Yes I love them
Get along with your Parents:	Yes they are my best friends in the world
Health Freak:	not really my mom likes to try to make me one though
Do you think your Attractive:	I dont know
Believe in Yourself:	yes I can so it I know I can
Want to go to College:	Im in college
Do you Smoke:	no
Do you Drink:	sometimes
Shower Daily:	of course I work around the thing I am most allergic to in the world that would be dumb not to lol
Been in Love:	I AM in love
Do you Sing:	I love to sing
Want to get Married:	Yes hopefully in like 5 years *wink Wink*
Do you want Children:	I want four
Have your future kids names planned out:	yes...Antonia Hope (Nia for short) and William Gabrielle
Age you wanna lose your Virginity:	ummmmmmmm
Hate anyone:	currently this guy in my english class
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!